been away, found proof of my own existence, so here I am!

Well, I never stopped thinking, but I'm taking some meds that make my brain not seem to work as well.  Here's where I'm at though.

I finally settled the whole existence thing for myself a while back, so here it is.

I KNOW I exist because I CHOOSE to BELIEVE I exist.  So long as I belive it, it is my own little subjective truth which I can cling to and laugh at anyone who denies that I do, whether it be me or someone else denying it.  (Though usually me).  The idea is similar to the old atheist/theist fight.  Just because you deny me doesn't make me not exist, and just because you believe I do, does also not mean I do exist.  It may somehow matter in your mind, but to me, it is only my own choice to believe.

Why do I emphasize choice? Because I do not think I have a true rational, indisputable position.  I choose it, even though I can poke holes in my existence all day.  So long as I stick to my chosen belief, nothing can weaken it..

I'll think about how to get out what this means down the line later.

I sent this concept along to Stephen Law(A very patient fella with a beginner like me).  He has a blog I highly recommend.  He's pretty focused on Atheism, but whatever.

If anyone knows if the book about all the great ideas of the 20th century in philosophy is worth the 20 bucks, let me know.

Oh, and welcome back.  :D